It began when they come took me from my home
And put me in Dead Row,
Of which I am nearly wholly innocent, you know.
And I’ll say it again
I..am..not..afraid..to..die.
I began to warm and chill
To objects and their fields,
A ragged cup, a twisted mop
The face of Jesus in my soup
Those sinister dinner meals
The meal trolley’s wicked wheels
A hooked bone rising from my food
All things either good or ungood.
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I’m yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth.
An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I’m not afraid to die.
Interpret signs and catalogue
A blackened tooth, a scarlet fog.
The walls are bad. Black. Bottom kind.
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath gathering at my hind
I hear stories from the chamber
How Christ was born into a manger
And like some ragged stranger
Died upon the cross
And might I say it seems so fitting in its way
He was a carpenter by trade
Or at least that’s what I’m told
Like my good hand I
tatooed E.V.I.L. across it’s brother’s fist
That filthy five! They did nothing to challenge or resist.
In Heaven His throne is made of gold
The ark of his Testament is stowed
A throne from which I’m told
All history does unfold.
Down here it’s made of wood and wire
And my body is on fire
And God is never far away.
Into the mercy seat I climb
My head is shaved, my head is wired
And like a moth that tries
To enter the bright eye
I go shuffling out of life
Just to hide in death awhile
And anyway I never lied.
My kill-hand is called E.V.I.L.
Wears a wedding band that’s G.O.O.D.
`Tis a long-suffering shackle
Collaring all that rebel blood.
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I’m yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I’m not afraid to die.
And the mercy seat is burning
And I think my head is glowing
And in a way I’m hoping
To be done with all this weighing up of truth.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And I’ve got nothing left to lose
And I’m not afraid to die.
And the mercy seat is glowing
And I think my head is smoking
And in a way I’m hoping
To be done with all this looks of disbelief.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway there was no proof
Nor a motive why.
And the mercy seat is smoking
And I think my head is melting
And in a way I’m helping
To be done with all this twisted of the truth.
A lie for a lie
And a truth for a truth
And I’ve got nothing left to lose
And I’m not afraid to die.
And the mercy seat is melting
And I think my blood is boiling
And in a way I’m spoiling
All the fun with all this truth and consequence.
An eye for an eye
And a truth for a truth
And anyway I told the truth
And I’m not afraid to die.
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I’m yearning
To be done with all this measuring of proof.
A life for a life
And a truth for a truth
And anyway there was no proof
But I’m not afraid to tell a lie.
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I’m yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth.
An eye for an eye
And a truth for a truth
And anyway I told the truth
But I’m afraid I told a lie.
This is the story about Truth, Remorse, Mercy, Punishment, Honesty and Murder.
Who is this man? I think he is a criminal who is sentenced to death. He lives the last hours of his life before his death. He is telling his last thoughts to anyone who listens. And that is you. He speaks very straight to you.
During his telling, he tries to avoid the guilty verdict, he constantly tells you that he has told the truth and you must believe him. He says he has never lied and no proof for his crime was ever found. People must believe his innocence. This man even blames his hands like he´s saying he cannot control himself. But the others don´t believe him.
He has grown tired of all the criminal processes in this matter. Like he says to you: ” Why don’t you believe me, I´m tired of going through it all again”. All this while he knows that he´s guilty. He has used all his energy by defending himself and trying to avoid the truth.
His faith is a mixture of Christianity and superstition. I think the prison pastor has spoke with him recently and/or he has some knowledge of basic Christianity in earlier life. He doesn´t know whether to believe or not, but he reaches out to God anyway. Mercy Seat is a biblical term, where God forgives the sinner his sins. He begs for mercy throughout the song. And he knows he deserves the punishment (constant “eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth).
He says he doesn´t fear death so many times that I think he really does fear it. It grows, he tries to hide death, even a little while.
Pride goes away and the very last sentence of the song is remarkable. It reveals so much: He confesses that he has lied all the way, at last he´s honest to himself, to God and to you (who is listening his agony).
The revelation in the last sentence almost leaves you speechless.